Tuesday, December 29, 2009

God's Humor

God has a good humor. Do you know how I know? Because when I started my new schedule for work I was to have Friday and Saturday's off, but working on Sunday's would prevent me from being able to go to church. So before my training at my new job was up- guess what? My schedule changed. So now I've had the majority of Sunday's off. I was mad at my work for it, but I kept thinking about God snickering at His delightful trick to keep me where I need to be.

Also it's been forever since I had a really bad cold. Honestly I don't even really remember when. Welllll recently I have stopped taking OTC medications (for personal reasons I may divulge in a future blog if I feel like). So anyway I have this nasty cold. It is seriously kicking my butt. I call my Dr. today and they advised that I should keep up on liquids, rest, hot showers, and to basically "man up" -oh and I can try home remedies and natural stuff if I choose (I'm to keep an eye on myself to make sure that I don't get any infections, etc). So anyway I think this is kind of humorous too because I have been around a lot of snot noses and I couldn't have gotten this cold BEFORE my new venture?

Anyway I think God is great and I know not a lot of people don't like to read things that are too religious-y, but seriously- God always knows what's best for you even when you don't. I'm so glad I'm able to look into the funny side of things. *sniffle, sniffle*

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Winter Driving

Dear Crazy Driver,

I know you enjoy tailgating people in bad weather; you probably do it in stellar conditions. I understand you are just that way. I realize you're impatient, self important, or always late. I know you get enjoyment teasing less ideal cars with your big fancy truck thing. I bet you can travel across the ice as if it were simply your freshly lain driveway.

Anyway I will admit that I am slightly jealous because as I skid to a stop you can stop on a dime. Or so you think. I just relish in the fact that if by chance your tires don't grip as much as you thought and you run into me I will be the one laughing evilly. Well if I'm not hurt badly by your poor driving.

Also when one of does decide to turn are you sure that you want to honk at me? I happen to value my life and unlike you I'd rather come home snug in my coat than snug in a body cast. I'd rather be late for work than not able to come in at all. So next time you honk angrily at a slow driver remember that driver simply values their life and wants to be safe.

You shouldn't be upset because people value thier lives and the lives around them. If I were to drive 'normal' in subnormal conditions that would be considered driving crazy and then you would be stuck in a long ridiculous line of traffic because I'm sure I'd manage to slide into something and cause a wreck. Then you'd be waiting even longer for clean up crews snow plows, etc.

So I guess it's your choice, stay behind a slow, cautios driver that values their life and come home safe; OR run them off a road, cause an accident, and be the one responsible for ruining another person's life.

Seems simple to me.

Thank you for reading, though I doubt you will read this entire thing.


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Sewing Life's Stitches

I know, I know... I've been told I haven't been keeping up my blog. Like my life- my blogs go on roller coasters. Right now I think we're on a slow uphill track, taking in the scenic route. One of those routes which you have to be there to get the vantage point.

I've been thinking about love. When I went through my divorce it was probably one of the darkest times I have ever dealt with. I think I bounced back on the outside pretty quickly, but I know inside it took me a long time to really come back.

I hurt when people I love have to go through it. I hurt when I hear about it. I think of how my heart was torn up and the blame everyone wanted to place- and the blame I placed. I don't feel very hurt at the moment, but I will never forget how it felt.

I think of where I am now. I had to go though a lot to get to where I am and so did my husband. We both went through our own personal hells and back. We both get little reminders of "what was" and perhaps once in a while something will spring a memory and we wonder "what could have been if only I..."

Honestly, I'm glad those if only's never happened. But I say that in ignorance, because no one knows what would have happened or how we'd feel today if the if only did happen. With that said would we wonder other forms of if only's?

I think of the simple decision of me filling out an application at 80/20 because I was told it was a good place to work; and I was mad at my employer at the time. Of all the places I could have randomly filled out an application to work (and I only tried the one place). That was the place were I would meet the love of my life.

It's kind of interesting when you look back and see the threads of life intertwined together. If I had missed but one stitch I'd be on a completely different path. Would I have met Kirby? Would my heart of hurt as much? Would our relationship be as strong without my pain? I don't know.

Am I thankful for my afflictions? When I was in the midst of agony- no. Looking back, yes. Without the turmoil I went through I don't think I could appreciate the life I am living now. And that is the honest truth, although I would never wish it on anyone or want to go through it again.

Lesson: Don't regret what you're going through now, even if it's bad. You can only put in another stitch and move the needle again to sew another piece of your life together.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Me moments...

Besides the fun I get to have with customers all day, every day I have officially made my new job more "me." My brain has allowed itself to reveal what I'm truly like. None of this 'I'm a serious worker.' My ditzy side said 'Game on!!!'

I tried to get a new car... twice. Yeah I was leaving for work and for whatever reason on two different nights I walked to some random car with my key out and ready to drive away- when I realized that wasn't my car. Oops. At least it was the same general color, right?

We are finally in our new teams at work and the girl I sit next to told me she had heartburn. I told her I had blond moments. I don't think she got it.

I may add that on no less than 2 1/2 occasions so far I attempted to leave early. I was so ready to go, closed my cash drawer, clocked out, shut down my computer- and what do you know I'm walking to the door all bundled up and ready to skedaddle home when I realize that I still have an hour to go. Oops, my bad. I know that 5 and 6 look alike... but I seriously need to set a "going home alarm" so I know the correct time to leave.

So those are some adventures for the time being. Work has been keeping me busy, but I'll try not to forget my bloggy friends!